Sunday, April 1, 2012

It's Hard to Explain.

Never did I think that it would happen, could happen, the way that it did. Just like everyone told me it would. Completely out of the blue. When I least expected it. Right when I had finally given up. It is hard to put into words how it all came about. It is nearly impossible to describe how, one day you are...just you. And, the next thing you know, you are completely incomplete without someone else.

Never did I think that something like this could truly exist. At least not for me. I wasn't deserving of something so extremely magnificent and real. It was to be read about. Dreamed about. Desired. But never to be held in my grasp. It is hard to explain how at times, you come to think that you don't need it. You don't even want it. And the next thing you know, you are so terrified of losing it.

Never did I think that he would be so absolutely fitting for me. No need to mold or shape or change. The piece of the puzzle that I've have been hunting for for days and days. And suddenly,there it is right before my eyes. The perfect "ah-ha" moment that makes the painstaking hours all worthwhile. It is hard to explain how you can spot that piece and know, without a doubt, that it's the one you have been searching for. And, the next thing you know, you set it in place, amongst all the others and suddenly...the picture is complete.

Never did I think that a piece of paper towel could mean so much. Something that can be torn, soaked, and tossed has become a highly valued commodity within my house, within my heart. It is hard to explain how this manufactured good could possibly hold such favor. But it does...And the next thing you know, you realize you need to buy more.

Never did I think I'd be able to share a life with someone. Always a lone wolf. Miss Independent. Too stubborn to change my ways. Unwilling to explain them to anyone else. It is hard to explain the exact moment when you realize, "We could make a new life, together". And the next thing you know, you embark on a brand new journey...and you aren't alone.

Never did I think. And it's so hard to explain. And the next thing you know...you just did.